A continuum

The other day my husband was playfully scolding me while my little one was watching. And upon realizing that I am getting scolded he jumped on top of him and was trying to lean him over to the bed ( a game that my kiddo and husband plays). In his little mind, he was trying to save me from getting scolded and he was doing it very cute. We both knew what he was trying to do and my husband went with his game and stopped teasing me.

But today I just couldn't be there while his dad turned into a dragon.  A dragon who's trying too meet the ends today huffed at his little dragon who was already scared not knowing what was happening.

I now remember all the times that he saved me but today I was just not there. tired the little dragon is asleep.

I will make it right tomorrow kiddo. Really sorry I was not there to shield you today.

I am going to make it right baby. Don't you worry child. I will be with you :)

 Dear Ammichi. You lived your life well . Will meet you at the other end :)

Wish I dropped in to see you one last time dear ammichi

To a life well lived.

Take care Ammichi

Thank you

For standing by my side when I said I'd like to shave my hair off my head. And yes for trimming it off. Guess I couldn't have done this alone anyway 😜

For saying that she looks beautiful when everyone now snigger how bald I look without hair 😎

For being a wonderful dad to our son

For being so amicably true

For letting me be me or rather remind me this is me

For making me laugh until I have to squeeze both my eyes  😁🤣😂

For enjoying me be me

I know you'd have been the same if it was somebody else too

But yes I love you and me, I love us and just don't know how can I thank enough the divine, the supreme, the stars, the universe and of course my mother who found you online 😎

For bringing us together...

To us🥂

Gone too soon

Well to whom do you say Gone to soon!

I am writing from the era of Covid 19 ,year 2020, that changed the life, turned it upside down for many.

I am one of those lucky folks who still have a job, have my family around and is keeping safe in these uncertain times.

Who's going to read this note by the way. Guess google. May be aliens from outer space. I bet they have better communication system .

When someone decides to take their own life, I wonder what kind of pain, he/she must have gone through.
Would I be able to help someone like that and defer him or her from the act of ending one's own life.

I hope you are peaceful now. Well the world is trying to give meaning for your leaving.

Everybody  is desperately trying to find out why as if it could bring you back.
Well we cannot but hopefully we can help anyone who thinks life has been hard.

You brought to light or to the pure subconscious mind who is rather filled with thoughts of daily chores, deadlines, finances, that life is precious and you showed us the pain.

Suicide is suicide be it a farmer who takes his life because he don't know why his crops failed him, be it a helpless person who is being bullied. Well the bullied never understand it's the people who bully are the insecure ones.

Just let your loved ones know that they can always fall back on you. Have courage to ask for help.

I wish you well.

Mummy dragon

I woke up in the middle of the night . My son woke me up with his little squeaky screams although very light ones. He just couldn't sleep. 

Well by the time I put him back to sleep I was wide awake. I was cursing that little bunch of joy who might have woken up seeing a demon in his night mare but I didn't care because my sleep got disturbed. 

He did fall asleep afterwards not because I sang a lullaby. He fell asleep in a jiffy possibly because he didn't want to see me turn into a monster spitting fire or a dragon for that matter. 
Well I am sure I would have certainly looked like a dragon if I looked myself in the mirror while going on ranting about how could he wake up the dragon!

Who wants to tolerate Mommy dragon's tantrums. Better sleep. zzzzzz

The Island The bridge The Road and The Boat

I live in Kochi and the name of my village is Palliport(Pallipuram). And Palliport is located on the Vypin Island which is surrounded by the Arabian Sea on one side and by the Vembanad Lake on the other side. It is an island that formed after a flood in 1341 and is it 27 kilometres long. It is the island known to have the highest density of population in the world and one reason behind this is that it is connected to the mainland Kochi through a series of bridges called the GoShree bridges. Check out the wiki https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vypin

Well I have been living here for more than 25 years and I love it here for its various beaches and backwaters. Even though I had been living on this island known for its famous fishing harbour Munambam, I got a chance to ride a boat in the lake a few months back.

Some 50 to 70 years back, most of the people depended on fishing(inland as well as sea) for their livelihood. But there were also people who went to the main land Ernakulam or Fort Kochi for employment in various stores, offices, schools etc. And during those days they depended on the boat services.

But lot of things have changed now. There are some islands around the world which do not connect to the main land and the people there are stranded and there is no activity. Vypin is a very busy island and is always on the move. There are bus services both privately owned and government owned running through the island connecting its people to the main land. You can call the road that runs along this 27 Km long island its blood stream and along its banks you will see Vypin’s commercial establishments, schools, banks and even houses or residences.

My house is also by the roadside. Vypin is also characterized for its many bridges. These bridges are constructed over the canals that run across the island. These canals are built in order to protect the island from floods that might occur in the future. These canals act as a channel for the water to leave or enter the island without flooding the land. Alongside the road my house is built near such a bridge constructed across one of these canals. In the last two years a major renovation was carried out on these bridges and they were widened in order to accommodate the ever widening traffic of vehicles through the Vypin-Munambam road. So a once small bridge of ours which only let traffic to a single side at a time now let vehicles ride past in both directions at the same time.

So I live next to a busy road and our bridge is the widest in the whole of Vypin.

And now about the boat. Back in 2004, tsunami hit Vypin. There were only few causalities but many people lost their boats. Many boats were tied near the shoreline of the lake and when the tsunami waves entered the lake it thrashed the boats to the shore and they were damaged. Also many boats got untied from the poles and floated away over the stream. Though some got washed off at the coast they were damaged as they thrashed with one another or to the coasts as the strong waves tsunami gushed through the streams.

And hence from the tsunami relief fund, many people were granted boats and recently I got to ride one of those Brunswick http://www.brunswick.com/brands/marine-engines/index.php boats in the supervision of The ‘Srank’ who happens to be my Dad’s friend.

The boats are meant for the sea but I rode it in the lake which has calm waters.

We see with the Eyes but we see with the brain as well. And seeing with the brain is called imagination.
Oliver Sacks.

The above lines caught my attention during random browsing over the internet. And I thought this was a coincidence because I decided yesterday that I will start seeing with my brain often and not just my eyes.
I will tell you why it is not a coincidence. I gradually discovered that last day(On August 30th , 2015) this great man, Oliver Sacks who is a world renowned neurologist died at 82..
I might have come across these words from him many times before but I only grasped that these words are from the man who explored the human brain and authored many best selling books on case histories only now.
Though this blog was created long back , I didn't write anything. May be I lacked imagination and I didn't know what to write. But today I have decided I will begin to see with my brain as well.

I want to try my luck with  Imagination.